It’s been two weeks since I ran NYC.
I’ve worked out once.
I know it’s important to heal. Give your body a break. Re-focus on things you ignored while you were training. Get more sleep.
But I feel restless, purposeless, anxious.
I always need a goal. I always need to be working towards something. And while recovery is indeed that – working towards healing my body so I can tackle another training cycle with injury- and burn-out- free – it’s less tangible than training. There are no runs you need to do. No strength classes to take. No obsessing over splits and average paces and perceived effort.
There’s just rest.
This is an important lesson for me. That being still is as valuable as being on the move. That doing nothing is as valuable as doing everything. That just because you can’t quantify it or put it on a calendar doesn’t mean it’s not worthwhile. This is more about me than my marathon recovery.
I hate it. But I am trying to learn from it and trying to grow because of it.
It’s so hard.
But so necessary.